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Thy Will Be Done

 


Recently I posted about the Get Lit! competition and placing in the final round. As part of the challenge, we had to incorporate a milking stool into our storyline.  I entered the contest alongside a writing buddy and will have to see how they feel about sharing their own milking stool entry here (or in the comments) 

(link to A Donkey In Mitford:https://kellybrewer.blogspot.com/2025/01/a-donkey-in-mitford.html )

The milking stool in my story was one of the family heirloom variety, one that served as a stepping stool for short grannies, a time out for wayward tots and a doll table long after its service to the bovines in the barn was replaced by PET's door-to-door milk deliveries. 

In the fictional family I wrote about, I included traits inspired by some of my own family members. Historically, the contest was only open to people in North Carolina or with roots in North Carolina (which I have) so I spent extra time choosing names for my characters based on North Carolina towns. 

 Closer to my heart, I made reference to a place in Lenoir, NC that really exists under a slightly different name and which really does offer mountains of hope to those in need.  And I shared "Reading Hallway" - a real thing I did for my own kids when they were little. 

I pulled from Mitford one of my favorite inspirations- "Thy Will Be Done" -the prayer that never fails.

It has been a helpful frame for me over the years. 

I've abbreviated it from four words down to a mere two: Thy Will... 

Whether interpreted as sitting still and yielding myself to a Will higher than my own, or parking my own will in time out - the net result is the same... not mine, but Thine be done. 

The writing reception didn't go as planned, as I mentioned in that post, and it sort of sidelined all the other plans I had made - including small trinkets/ornaments inspired by my story. 

But today, I clear the cache a little more and share my entry for your enjoyment and critique, along with the slapdash craft that only turned out so, so. 

To open as a document, click here: 

DEAR READER: 

Finalist in the Mitford GetLit! Writing Competition 

(link: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1fcNLCpYuIPdnZoce73Yu4NMjY4Xq4TFfxgSn3IwcUuc/edit  ) 

...or simply read on... 

DEAR READER by Kelly Brewer

Grandma Clovis was dead.

After more practice rounds than Augusta National, Clovis Jean Baker had finally tripped the Light Fantastic

for real. But this story is not about her death–it’s about what happened next. 


In the early days of her diagnosis, Clovis wasted no time getting her house in order.

“While I still have the mind to!” she quipped. 

Grandma  preferred  punchlines to frown lines and often called on  the wisdom of her own patron saint,

Pollyanna,  for ways to be “glad in it”--whatever “it” turned out to be.

A few years in and her tendency to start every other sentence with “When I’m gone…” barely startled

them anymore. Sometimes, it seemed as if that was all she talked about. 

Life is funny but so is death. 

For all the close calls and conversations, they found that they still weren't nearly prepared.

In the end, despite all she had survived, Clovis was finite. They knew this about her. We all know this

about each other.  Yet somehow, they conspired to keep it a secret from themselves.  

It is true, Dear Reader, that one can never be fully prepared for certain events until they happen, but it is

equally true that we must learn this time and again for ourselves. 

~ * ~

The practical stuff was paid for long ago: the preacher, the plot, and the coffin with its economical lining. 

But who would write the obituary?  How did she want her hair?  A list of final directives certainly

existed, but where?

In the days leading up to her funeral, the Baker bunch combed the halls of their childhood home like raiders searching for an ark. They scurried and scrambled. They cobbled together what they could remember and improvised what they could not. 

And then, Gentle Reader, they buried her. 

Funerals are deadlines without extension. Ready or not, we submit what we’ve got, nailing the door for

future edits closed. We bury our lingering regrets and adorn them with flowers. 

And so, just like that, finding the right shade of lipstick to bury a Patrician Winter in and the service bulletin’s multiple misspellings ceased to matter. 

For  this is not the story of a funeral. It is the story of those left behind. 

~ * ~ 

Like the fabled Blue Moon of All Hallows’ Eve, a loved one’s funeral has the power to open a realm of

startling truth and clarity, previously unseen.  

Secrets are divulged and shoeboxes spill out their sentiment. Coin jars are counted, confessions are made and a person’s internet history is revealed. 

Piles of treasure and goodwill line the halls as every cabinet and drawer is emptied. 

Casserole dishes and mixing bowls, cookbooks and that one wooden spoon, children fight one last time

over cleaning out the kitchen. 

Perhaps you’ve got an antique aunt or great oaken uncle of your own? One who, after holding on to

that last deciduous leaf for dear life (and the better part of a decade), finally let go of what turns out to

be the family's final straw. 

Maybe  you have ducked from the path of flying flatware or dodged sly attempts to pass on Buck, the

blind and spastic dog.  It can be ghastly. 

Let’s take a peek at how the Baker bunch is managing. 

“You are such a sneak, Fletcher! You knew I was planning to keep it!” Charlotte was berating her baby

brother from the doorway of his childhood bedroom  “Give it back to me!” 

“I’m going to give it to you alright, Charley Horse! I told you to trust me. Now get out of here!” Fletcher was on the floor, curled around a squat wooden stool that belonged to

their mother, recently procured from his sister’s room. He gripped the front legs like the horns of an altar

and used his foot to kick the door closed. 

Fletcher hadn’t meant for the door to slam, but the sound echoed through the house all the same,

commanding everyone’s attention. 

Great! Now it would be a whole thing.  

Clovis was clear regarding earthly possessions: no fussing or squabbling, and no robbing her peace over a pie dish. She had often implored them when they visited to go ahead and put their names on the things they would like to keep. But they found it far too macabre and never did as they were told. 

Kenly and Cameron, twins and joint-heirs to the middle by their fraternal bond, sat at the kitchen table

sorting buttons from coins, unopened mail and minutiae.  At the sound of the door slamming, they

exchanged  glances and carefully rose from their balanced stacks. 

Cam went toward Charlotte’s room leaving Kenly to handle  Fletcher. She had always had a better way with him, more nurturing and maternal, while Cam and Charlotte spoke the same native, no-nonsense tongue. 

"Char? May I come in?"  Cam could soften the bass of his 'radio voice' when necessary. He entered

gingerly and sat on the edge of Charlotte's bed. "Are you ok? What was that all about?"

Charlotte was at her desk, phone in hand, scrolling mindlessly. 

“Nothing. Just grief setting in. We’re all so tired.  He can have it if it means that  much, I  just didn’t

want him messing it up, that’s all.” 

"Messing what up, hon?" Cam asked, more coddling than usual. 

“Ma’s stool” Charlotte was still looking at her phone, but tears spilled over, onto the screen. She wiped

them  away and after a quiet moment,added “I learned to read on that stool.” 

Cameron remembered the “Reading Hallway”well. Unable to be in both the girls’ and boys’ rooms at once, Clovis improvised by placing the old milking stool mid-hallway “between East Egg and West Egg” and propping her back against the wall.

The stories she told were nightlights, ordinary words  spun into gold and glowing against the darkened

hall. 

Stories, plural. 

Clovis enjoyed the stories as much as the kids. It was not unusual to hear half a dozen short stories or chapter upon chapter of an epic classic in one night.   She was sure to add voices and  sound effects. 
They became Narnian citizens from her place on that stool. They snuck past Smaug with Bilbo Baggins
and soared through night skies with the Little Prince and Peter Pan. 
As they learned to read, it was a treat to perch on that oft-painted stool and ‘sound-it-out’ until their siblings fell asleep from the sheer exhaustion of  stories-over-speedbumps. Together, they
had Hopped on Pop and counted Mr. Popper’s Penguins, fell asleep with Homer Price and woke up with
a hankering for doughnuts. 
"Char, I’m sure he will be careful," Cam assured her, placing a gentle hand on her shoulder. But what
he said next was more 'I hope' than 'I know'. 
 "The woodshop at Mercy Colony has been so good for his recovery. I’m sure he’s just planning to
polish it or something. Do something for Ma, you know? Show us what he knows."
Charlotte knew her younger brother was right. Fletcher needed an opportunity to shine for a change.

~ * ~ 

In Fletcher’s room, Kenly’s knockless entrance caught Fletcher pulling a small hand saw from his

knapsack. 

She suddenly dreaded the rising confrontation. “What in Tar Heel Nation, Fletch?!” 

He spun toward her with a shushing finger then whispered a furtive explanation which we cannot know, 

Quiet Reader,  for they were whispering. 

Converted from confidant to accomplice in three minutes flat, Kenly guarded the door from further

intrusion while Fletcher worked the saw.

~ * ~ 

Charlotte was still scrolling, unfocused, when Kenly walked in with the sacred relic. 

"Hey, Char?" Kenly waited for Charlotte's eyes to meet her own.  "The stool is safe. It's right here.

Take it home to Kitty and Otto–show them how we used it like a table."

Like a child after pitching a successful hissy-fit, Charlotte tried to remain somber about getting her own

way, as if to earn what was already given. “I’ll teach them to read here,” Char bargained,  “and to turn

around and pray.”

Charlotte took the stool from Kenly and hugged it close to her heart. She found the chiseled grooves

on the stool’s broad face and traced the familiar words with her fingers, THY WILL

A prayer Clovis taught them to pray when other words were few.

 As she traced the letters again and again, her lips formed the silent words and her heart conformed to

the prayer. 

~*~

I would  love to tell you Fletcher graduated from Mercy Colony in time for Thanksgiving dinner. And

it would have been nice to show you Kitty and Otto drinking hot cocoa at a little, prayerful table.  

Most of all,  I want to tell you that the delicate ornaments, nestled in Fletcher’s bag, really were cut from the legs of that old milking stool; how the years of paint, like tree rings, framed simple, indelible words; a powerful, ineffable prayer. You may even wonder if the woodshop at Mercy Colony is still there. 

Dear Reader, I wish I could tell you, but that is another story. 




Writers on Wednesday: O. Henry [William Sydney Porter]


Last Wednesday, having finished a favorite audiobook by a favorite author, I made writing about writers on Wednesday my goal. 

However,  I opted to save Edna Ferber, my inspiration for writing the series, for a future Wednesday, because the date was September 11 and my mind has linked the events of that day in 2001 forever with The Bridge of San Luis Rey and Thornton Wilder's approach to humanity. 

I am eschewing Edna again this week, because I realized this week that September 11 is also  the birthday of William Sydney Porter - better known to the world as O. Henry.  Had I a [deeper voice and an almanac] I may have known it sooner. 

O. Henry is one of my all-time, top-shelf favorite authors, and I love William Sydney Porter for the larger-than-life lore, too. 

Most of the authors I adore have long been on the other side of eternity. Sufficient biographies exist and it isn't my intent to write new ones. Go - delve into the material that has already been conveniently compiled - or just glance their [Wikipedia page]. 

Then let them tell you stories. 

I have always appreciated short stories, going as far back as the quick vignettes on Sesame Street. 

Blame my attention span. 

As I was raising (and homeschooling) my children, a large part of my reading time was our reading time. I read aloud from children's books and classics in the front seat of the car as we travelled or the hallway in between their bedrooms at bedtime.  I wouldn't change a thing.  

Short story collections fit perfectly into the thimble of time leftover for personal use. 

I discovered countless authors through short story anthologies. 

My own writing style has been influenced by short form in many ways. 

“I'll give you the whole secret to short story writing. Here it is. Rule 1: Write stories that please yourself. There is no Rule 2.”
― O. Henry

I still have the first O. Henry collection I bought many years ago, found in one of my favorite old bookstores down by the river in Beaufort, SC. 

I wanted a library full of books, especially old ones with their papery perfume and ancient wisdom. I found O. Henry's familiar name on the cracking orange spines of a two volume set as good a start as any.

“Each of us, when our day's work is done, must seek our ideal, whether it be love or pinochle or lobster à la Newburg, or the sweet silence of the musty bookshelves.”
― O. Henry

I don't recall if the library seeds came before or after my blog Ordinary Life -longtime onlookers know I've kept more blogs than a fur coat of Dalmatians- and the name wasn't a direct reference to any one factor. But O. Henry's [delight over ordinary things] is sympatico in spirit. 

“There are stories in everything. I've got some of my best yarns from park benches, lampposts, and newspaper stands.”
― O. Henry

One of my favorite things about reading O. Henry is discovering the way the world was before me. Often ways that are no longer commonplace but were as normal as [dandelions in salad] once upon a time. 

I also like the current of writer's life humming through his writing. The fourth wall is often broken or ignored altogether and the reader is trusted to always catch his meaning. 

I remember learning, a long, long time ago, that Mickey's Christmas Carol was based on real stories from books. And so, I was an early fan of [The Gift of the Magi

It was much later, and thanks to [Bill Myers]  I discovered [The Last Leafwas written by the same author. 

And that is likely where my greater discovery of O. Henry's works began. 

The names of authors and books inside other books are highly contagious. 

“It would seem that the story is ended, instead of begun; that the close of a tragedy and the climax of a romance have covered the ground of interest; but, to the more curious reader it shall be some slight instruction to trace the close threads that underlie the ingenuous web of circumstances.”
― O. Henry, O. Henry: The Complete Works

I can't list here all of O. Henry's stories I've read - again, I sometimes neglect the ones I haven't gotten to for another round with the ones I love. Right now, I'm listening through [Waifs and Strays] via LibriVox, mostly while driving. 

And every year, on the Fourth of July, it is my own tradition to listen to [The Fourth in Salvador]

Each time I visit a new-to-me story - by O. Henry or any favorite author - I am always sorry I didn't arrive sooner. 

"And most wonderful of all are words, and how they make friends one with another, being oft associated, until not even obituary notices them do part.”― O. Henry, Whirligigs

One thing I learned about O. Henry as I was readying to write this is that he died at the age of 47 from diabetes. That's less than a stone's throw from my own age.  His complete life and body of work before the benefit of fifty. 

“The true adventurer goes forth aimless and uncalculating to meet and greet unknown fate. A fine example was the Prodigal Son — when he started back home.” ― O. Henry, The Green Door

How very glad I am he didn't dillydally. Time, being as it is, of the essence. 

“The most notable thing about Time is that it is so purely relative. A large amount of reminiscence is, by common consent, conceded to the drowning man; and it is not past belief that one may review an entire courtship while removing one's gloves.”― O. Henry

“If a person has lived through war, poverty and love, he has lived a full life”
― O. Henry

“We can't buy one minute of time with cash; if we could, rich people would live longer.” -O. Henry

Pretty Good Patheos Problem


I recently let my friends at Patheos know I was turning "The Pretty Good Report" out to pasture.  

To quote my teenage daughter's favorite anti-hero: "It's me, hi! I'm the problem, it's me.

I first encountered Patheos as a young-ish blogger, many years ago, at a time when I was also making my faith and life my own.  I explored a lot of new ideas by the authors-of-then.  I met with fresh perspectives and thought-provoking challenges; it was a season of growth and growing up.  

As a result, I held Patheos with kind regard and the chance to join their ranks seemed like a good reason - perhaps even motivation- to write. 

But the opportunity to write for them arrived in a different, more rooted season. 

It is curious to look back and see how tall we've changed, how thick our bark. 

"Further up, further in" as the Unicorn was heard to say. 

I realized along the way that this whole journey is a continual forward motion until we reach the river's crossing.  So, these days, with that established, unless someone asks, I have little worth a pitched-tent-stay. 

Oh, I love to describe my own journey - the birds that are singing, the beauty around me. 

Like journaling. 

Writing for clicks and curating SEO put me in a different frame of mind - my words felt stilted and more "talking at" than "talking with" . . . more pontificating than sharing ... with more pressure to wrap endings up in pretty spiritual bows, too.  All that to say, less natural. 

I suppose my words @ Patheos will live on in the root-cellar-recesses-of-words-gone-by until the archives need sweeping to make room for new authors. And it is just as well. I have never felt it was my best work. The darker the dungeon, the better sometimes. 

Meanwhile, I've opened the windows and scrubbed the baseboards on two or three of my many-fractaled blogs and will continue to offer field notes from there  - whenever nature calls, without word counts or deadlines nor the pressure to package my words for optimal ad based revenue.  

To write is to express myself - occasionally to run the levee dry.

 I want to make much of living, if not much of a living. 

You'll see my tip jar for coffee - but I've got to tell you the truth: even if it only fills with cobwebs and  wooden nickels,  I will continue to buy my own coffee and write words with wild abandon.  

Because I do both for me, and share either freely with you.